Last year on this day.

I remember we argued last year on this day. That time I was still in love with another gurl, and played with your love. In the end, I neglected your birthday and went to celebrate another person's birthday with her. After thinking back, I feel kinda foolish. I'm glad you've made the right choice, having a good, reliable and gentlemen boyfriend. People think that i've moved on. But the truth is, I still think of you every now and then. I still think of you and am still jealous of him. How foolish can I be knowing that you won't be back for me anymore. I keep thinking everyday, if I really had the chance, just a tiny little chance to get back with you, i'll treat u in the best way, and nvr gonna do the stupid stuffs i did to you last time. But, oh well, there's a 'if' everytime and most probably an 'impossible' in front of the 'if'. Do you even know why I treated you like that? It's because i keep thinking that I won't have a long relationship with you, and I keep thinking that I'm in love with another gurl. I keep treating you like that because I thought that incase i had a chance with her then i won't want to be with you anymore, thats why i chose not to treat u better. After breaking up with you, I realize, i dont love her at all, and the person i love most is you. Sigh.. It's still the end of our relationship, even after saying much things. All I can hope for is just to dream every night about you and wishing it will come true one day. I keep telling myself. If god were to give me a last single wish on the day before the day I die, I'm gonna wish to spend the last day with you. Spending each and every moment with you before my last breath.. ily